Music

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Resonate (2008)		There’s Gotta Be Something (2007)
		CD Baby


Everywhere All At Once (2006)		One Night Stands (2005)
/ CD Baby		/ CD Baby


Dark Horse (2005)		Love Rocks (2004)
/ CD Baby		Human Rights Campaign


All for Show (2003)		I Go On … (2002)
/ CD Baby		/ CD Baby


Eric Himan (2000)
/ CD Baby

Eric Himan (2000)

“First Hand”

I guess I’m digging in deep
See what’s making all this noise underneath
Something’s been screaming for a while inside
The little boy in me has nothing left to hide
All I’ve sacrificed in the past is starting to broaden my view
I’m taking responsibility for my actions, maybe you should too
Cause I know first hand, I know first hand how I really feel
And I’m no betting man, but I think I understand why I chose to deal
No cause for alarm, I’m not doing anybody any harm, I’m just acting suspiciously
That trouble ain’t my friend and the heartache will end… eventually
Well, I know, I know, I know, I know…
The woman next to me shrugs her shoulders
She’s been timid all her life
All the hopes that she made when she was young she tucked away
Soon forgot and gave up the fight
Well, I know first hand, I know first hand how she really feels
And I may be a young man but I think I understand why she chose not to deal
Some risks are easier to take, some can bend you till you break, listen to me
That when the pieces fall apart, you’ll find your way out of the dark…eventually
Well, I know, I know, I know, I know…
I’ve been driving in circles
Around this parking lot
There’s a stretch of road out my window
And I’m too nervous to give a shot
So… I’ll throw out my roadmap
And just follow the stars
I’ve got no real destination
But I plan on driving real FAR!
Cause I know first hand, I know first when I’m in the clear
And I’m not a betting man, but I think I understand what I’m still doing here
I know, I know…Well I know… what I’m still doing here

“Drop the Coin”

Drop the coin and pull the lever, am I the jackpot winner, tell the dealer to hit me again
Mind trick in catch 22, do you like me the way that I like you, if it doesn’t work out in the end I’ll just pretend…
Love’s game starts with a glance in your direction and then, obtaining facts you didn’t know I was asking and that’s when I decided we should be together, so what if you didn’t know we’d end up happy ever after…in my head
Looked up as your wanting eyes caught my attention and I knew that I could be the topic of your conversation, not sure is it me? Am I your heart’s desire or in the way of another’s eyes you wanted to capture…instead?
Drop the coin and pull the lever, am I the jackpot winner, tell the dealer to hit me again
Mind trick in catch 22, do you like me the way that I like you, if it doesn’t work out in the end I’ll just pretend like this didn’t happen
Woke up, to the tap on the shoulder of reality saying, “Face it kid, good looks aren’t all they are cracked up to be”, and next time I’ll get up enough nerve to just say hello and just be satisfied with the fact, that I let you know, “You’re not that easy to let Go!”
Drop the coin and pull the lever, am I the jackpot winner, tell the dealer to hit me again
Mind trick in catch 22, do you like me the way that I like you, if it doesn’t work out in the end I’ll just pretend like this didn’t happen
Love’s game started with a glance in your direction and then obtaining facts I wish not to mention, not sure was it me was I your heart’s desire or in the way of another’s eyes you tried to capture…
Drop the coin and pull the lever am I the jackpot winner, tell the dealer to hit me again and I’ll just pretend like this didn’t happen…

“After Today”

I built my expectations around you like a fence, who knew you’d leave me in search of another’s happiness, surprised to find that you painted those old wooden boards with my lonliness, I don’t blame you no one should ever have to settle for less…
—and you, you are a constant reminder of the love I gave away
—and you, you are a constant reminder that things will never be the same after today and as these thoughts, watch them circulate through my head, better to keep my mouth shut than say something I wish I hadn’t said, like,”I want you back”, but at least I know it’s for all the wrong reasons, entertain me for a minute, distract me from my demons, cause I’m leaving…
—and you, you are a constant reminder of the love I wish I had saved
—and you, you are a constant reminder that things will never be the same after today
I guess it was never really you I wanted to love, projected myself for reasons I don’t even know of, and you are a constant reminder of the love I missed out on, who am I kidding, I only wanted it after you were gone…
—and you, you are a constant reminder that the joke was on me
—and you are a constant reminder that things will never be the same after today

“I Never Asked”

I led you on just to lead you out, now I can’t complain
It’s reversed you see, got what’s coming to me, now I feel to blame
I’ve never been free with intimacy, so take me for what I am worth
A lucky lay with nothing to say except, “We Need to talk”
I’m doing it again, another victim becomes a friend
So don’t ask me where your heart went
Another face makes a frown saying I let you down
But, I never asked you to love me!
The page has turned, the wick has burned and I’ve decided that
I’ve leaving with the crew in my parachute, strapped to my back
I’m not a quitter and I’d stick it out if I felt the need
But after the first day I knew I’d leave…….OUCH!
I’m doing it again, another victim becomes a friend
So don’t ask me where your heart went
Another face makes a frown saying I let you down
But, I never asked you to love me!
Well, it started with a wall, now it’s a five-story high rise
And all you need is just one small key but first you gotta go through me
And don’t be so naïve… it ain’t gonna be that easy!
I’m doing it again, another blister on your hand
Hey, well you asked where my heart was…
Another face starts to turn blue, I never asked that much of you and
I never asked you to love me!!!!

“Safe”

So your lover ran away and left you behind, with a scrapbook full of pictures to help pass your time, now your restless, paranoid and you don’t know what for, try to forget all the good time but there’s some you just can’t ignore…
So much you want to say but you can’t get across, you loved the magic of the unknown but somehow you got lost…
It’s safe in there
The home of your choice
It’s safe in there
Out away from all of this noise
It’s safe in there
No battles to be fought
It’s safe in there
‘Cause when you run, you never get caught
Looking back on your life, made a few mistakes you must agree
Track record speaks for itself, you should have looked before you leaped
So you retreated to a place you can handle everything
Distancing yourself far enough that you can’t remember where you’ve been…
It’s safe in there
All locked up inside
It’s safe in there
No cost to your pride
It’s safe in there
No love to be sought
It’s safe in there
‘Cause when you run, you never get caught
So now your armed with your peace, regrouped and repaired and you know you’ll fuck up again, but next time you’ll be aware….is it really safe in there?
All bottled up and ready to pour, if you think your glass is half empty than it’s time to add some more, and your standing on the other side of that closed door,
I guess your just as safe as you were before.

“Fist”

Allow me to make my big entrance for all the ears out there, till your eyes fit their function in a unified stare, I will douse myself with joy, stuff my face with love, I will palm the world like a basketball, fit it on like a glove… till you shut that door right in my face, one day I’m gonna run right back in that place, right back in that place…
Cause I’m here to start a riot, I’m hear to bring the noise, prove I’ve got the answer, honey, prove I’ve got a voice, stuff my pockets till there ain’t no more room, and spend my life savings on repairing the sun and the moon, oh I swear this story’s got a twist, when you reach out your hand honey,
I, I will make a fist…This story’s got a twist, when you reach out your hand honey I, I will make a fist I’ve been living on wine, I’ve been living on nothing, gonna find my day, someday, if I have to look and sweep under everything, if there’s a choice, if there’s no matter, there’s nobody here I was appointed to flatter…yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah…
When you reach out your hand, honey do you notice me there, underneath the rocks underneath the stairs, waiting for a chance, to bring it on by, gonna run right past the water, gonna drink that water dry…
This story’s got a twist, reach out your hand honey I will make a fist…

“Last Night”

Set the place on fire, last night, there’s always a good laugh after a good fight, climbed the steepest of streets so tired that we had to stop, and you know all those doctors who told us to quit must of shook their heads when they saw us light up
Hey precious, as your mama would say
Everything happens for a reason
Look how good of friends we became…hey precious
Met by a fire door when our lives had space
And you sat at the same spot in the bar, so I could recognize your face
Drove all the way up from Florida, so tired that we had to stop
And when you tried to fall asleep, all the noise I made woke you up
Hey precious, you keep telling me to trust the process
And you never would have met me unless I hadn’t walked in to your office
Hey Precious, hey precious
Set the place on fire last night, there’s always a good laugh after a good fight

“One Less Person”

My mom paid for the life that I had, but I couldn’t thank so I had to thank my dad
And there was one promise that he could never keep that there’d be one less person tucking me into sleep
Do I have her smile? Do I have something more? You know, I never met her I wouldn’t know what to look for, and there must be some reason, my dad breaks down and cries,
My sister has her walk, my sister has her eyes
Her picture’s always at the side of my bed saying when the world gives you shit, look at me instead and you’ll grow up strong and wise like a good boy should, I’d give myself back to you if I could…If I could
I’d wait by windows, just in case, but I never saw any thing that I could not replace, what if she did live and thought I’d be better off on my own? I still wait by every window for my mom to come home
Her picture’s always at the side of my bed saying when the world gives you shit, look at me instead and you’ll grow up strong and wise like a good boy should, I’d give myself back to you if I could…If I could
I heard the stories but I wonder if any of them are true, they both have different sides sometimes its hard to conclude, were you happy? Do you still think of me? When it rains, Are those your tears on my sleeves?
Leave your mark child, don’t be afraid, hard times get you so down, you give up and turn away, and you’ll grow up strong and wise like I knew you would, I’d give myself back to you if I could, I’d give myself back to you…If I could I would
If I could, lord knows I would

“Sympathize”

Save the day
If you think you know the way
Well you barged right in, now are you gonna stay?
I never learned so much from watching, you taught me exactly what not to do, threw up your hands and sighed
When you find that your only home, is the skin you live in so alone
And you prod only to patronize, tell me baby can you…sympathize (4) Hey
Somebody free this man
From your destiny
Take away all the pain that you bestowed on me, well
Didn’t you say different? Didn’t you disagree? Now your story’s changing to the view of majority.
When you find that your only home, is the skin you live in so alone
And you prod only to patronize, tell me baby can you… sympathize (4) Hey
Well c,mon, c’mon c’mon c’mon, c’mon, c’mon… Hey
Save the day, well you said you knew the way, I put you back in my arms and you put me up for display, well, didn’t you say different, well, now I agree, I should’ve listened to the mass, dumped your ass, and drove away free!
When you find that your only home, is the skin you live in so alone
And you prod only to patronize, tell me baby can you… sym-pa-thize… yeah

“Could This Be”

If your gonna ask me a question, set sail and cast
But don’t blame me for what you reel in, darling, you asked
You said what’s wrong with our country, and I said
“Sir where should I start?”
We’re moving our troops into countries I can’t even pronounce and never even knew about!
AIDS, cancer, landfills, forestry, the overeducated, the welfare, poverty
Career politicians and the wall street men, you tell me is this the beginning or the end?
Could this be, Could this be, Could this be hypocrisy
Could this be, Could this be, See, and you thought this was a democracy
All those battered wives and homeless children are taught how to sing the blues
While we rescue other countries and take away their right to choose
Could this be, Could this be, Could this be hypocrisy
Could this be, Could this be, See, and you thought this was a democracy
Abortion , modern day slavery, kids with guns, violence on TV
Discrimination of race, orientation, sex, and creed
Drug abuse, gangs, suicide, the beauty myth and rape
Taxation, immigration, expense education, HATE!
Could this be, Could this be, Could this be hypocrisy
Could this be, Could this be, See, and you thought this was a democracy

“Pull”

Pull the hand that ties you down, and give it a rest I’m trying to sleep
Pave the way, pave the way for those who try to tell you better than what you think you are… and don’t ya know it’s always hard to find somebody else there… don’t you think you are just as good
And don’t let them tell you different… don’t let them tell you different
I found you laying, half asleep and yet half awake, and in the midst I saw you crying
Don’t forget what I said I encourage you to tell the truth I only wanted the best for you
And don’t ya think I know what I’m talking about, live this life too long to tell you what to do… and no matter how hard I try the days get shorter and no matter how hard I try the days get older…
Don’t let them tell you different… and don’t let them take control
*I warned you, I told you, It might turn out like this, people, ya know, are sometimes to be missed*

I Go On … (2002)

“Delicately Made”

These vulnerable sentiments
I’m reluctant to say
Because my heart
Is delicately made

Not enough energy
Crazy never-ending days
Leaving me motionless
Leading me astray

This shall pass (so make me bend)
This shall pass (so make me laugh)
This shall pass (bring me home)
But how fast and when?

Fear invites doubt
Doubt harbors fear
I anticipate reward
Of a road unclear

Lessons in futility
Making me bolder
Repeating my serenity
Three times over

This shall pass (so make me bend)
This shall pass (so make me laugh)
This shall pass (bring me home)
But how fast and…

When will all this hard work pay off?
Will the end justify the cost?
Of what I’ve lost, (3 X’s)

These vulnerable sentiments
I’m reluctant to say
Because my heart
Is delicately made

“I Ain’t Done With You”

Still I clean up all your messes
Still I work to pay your bills
And I’d be fed up by now
If you didn’t know how… how fond I am of your cheapest thrills.

Still I entertain you with melody
Still I ignore all your complaints
And I’d have put out that fire long ago
If you didn’t know how… enamored I am by your flames.

And it may look like I’m catching on, from your point of view
But until the day I do, I ain’t done with you

Since the beginning I have fed you well
Since the honeymoon was over you don’t find impressing me, necessary.
And I’d be up to my eyes in tears
If I didn’t think that their was something here
Worth all… the humiliation

And it may look like I’m getting tired, from your point of view
But until the day I do, I aint done with…
I ain’t done with
I ain’t done with you…

Still I stay
Still you stay
And even when I speak
And my story is concrete
Still I cave, still I cave………Still I cave

And I might look like a fool from your point of view
But until I felt all I have done for you… I ain’t done with you

“Did You Know”

Did you know I’ve been pacing the apartment?
Still drenched in your thought
Did you know even with all of this moving?
Somehow you found a way to get me caught

Interior, is a little bit bruised
My exterior needs a fresh coat of tattoos
Steady for now, but I’m dissatisfied
I thought your love was a ship, I would never capsize…

Go on and break my heart
You know it would do me some good
I gave it a shot, gave it all that I could
Go on and break my heart
Show me what I’m made of
Cause if you’re not for me you bring me one step closer to love

Did you know I’ve been driving myself crazy
Can’t even break sight with the phone
And when you didn’t call I thought I might have made a mistake
Only mistake I made was waiting home

Interior, is a little bit bruised
My exterior needs a fresh coat of tattoos
Steady for now, but I’m dissatisfied
I thought the worst of it all was far behind

Well, I can beg, I can kick and scream for one more try
But even thought things didn’t work, I know what I’ve learned here I can reapply…

“Change Your Tune”

This may come to no surprise
But your smile’s no substitute for a disguise
And I’m not gonna scratch the score and give you a clean slate
This here history you can’t afford to waste
—and I’ll have my say before we’re through
and the last thing I will say to you is…

Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
So go ahead and change your tune

Hold my hat up high cause I know in time
He’ll find out once upon your life, you were mine, you were mine.
And your new identity
Will slide right off and your true self will be seen
You’ll change your tune
You’ll change your tune
You’ll change your tune
You’ll change your tune don’t think I don’t know you…

Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
So go ahead and keep your cool

Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
Only you know you like I do
So go ahead, go ahead
Go ahead and change your tune.

“The Man You Had in Mind”

For the millionth time I tried
To live up to be the man you had in mind
Was I not who you thought I’d be
Well im sorry you wanted more and all you got was me…

And I watch as ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
Your high hopes FALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
And in all your fights to prove your right
You still will never find
The man you had in mind

The more I go on, the less you call
Funny how that frown of yours never seems to move at all
Thank you for taking the time
To plan out my life for me now its time that I plan mine

And I watch as ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
Your high hopes FALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
And in all your fights to prove your right
You still will never find
The man you had in mind

For the millionth time I tried
To grow up to be the man you had in mind
For all the hoops you have me jump through
I’ve played your game, but this time, I’m the pawn that you can’t move

You can’t move me if I’m no longer there
You cant move me if I’m no longer scared
You can’t tell me that your were always right and I am just throwing it…
Allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll away…
Your high hopes Fall…
After all you’ve done, to prove me wrong
Say hello the man I am inside and goodbye to the
Man you had in mind

“Alone”

I’ve done all the right things
Gave my charity to every cause
So they say that one day, my love will come along
Dear God, was I meant to be alone?

Spend my time helping those through the love
The looking glass I am so jealous of
Been so busy with others stories, lost track of where my heart has gone
Dear God, was I meant to be alone?

I once had faith destiny… the older I get the harder it is to believe
But if its true there must be someone just as blue and lonely for me…

The couple’s dance to my serenade…
My lonely heart strums the music …makes …them…sway
But I’m only to blame, for I’d do the same if someone came along
Dear God…Dear God…Dear God…was I …meant to be…alone…

“Save Me the Trouble”

I’ve been gathering memories to stand on like books to see over all of this
And in every attempt to place the past in a box I find more things to add to the list
Oh but you save me the trouble, save me the trouble……when both of your hands are full
You save me the trouble of asking for more than I should

You are the thumb of my hand which means that you are the closest to me you can get
And for a minute I pause as I wait for reassurance to crawl through and out of you
Oh but you save me the trouble, save me the trouble……when both of your hands are full
You save me the trouble of asking for more than I should

Running through the files I keep logged in my mind
I find comfort and pleasure in the safety of hindsight
Things then don’t seem so bad now for the time that we have
And one day we’ll find

Now the time’s winding down and you talk of the future without any reference to me
Suddenly all the predicted mental pictures have lost their visibility
Oh but you save me the trouble, save me the trouble…when all in your heart is full
You save me the trouble of asking for more than I should

“Us Little People”

Today we killed a man for killing
Wouldn’t you know it, he was willing
Can’t say the same for the chosen few
And in the classroom down the street
Children are taught revenge isn’t sweet
And we wonder why they bring their daddies guns to school

So before you go to bed, say a prayer for those unsaid
Who never got the one wish they could’ve used
And the prisoners on death row are shown mercy and let go
Before remorse pays them a visit long overdue

If the world was just as easy as 50’s sitcom TV
We’d never have to watch the evening news
And I’d feel safer in this land if I knew the big guys understand
That us little people need protection too, cause I’m just as scared as you…

So we execute the guilty to justify our safety that finally someone is getting what they deserve
And how sadistic have we become to market human destruction and televise with commercials afterwards
Saying you heard it here first…

Who’s right is to take a life for a life
Give a dying man his wish to see the light
Inject the criminals so full of chemicals that he glows from head to toe
And leaves this world less painful…than what he’s done to us

“No Urgency”

Close your eyes, this is a dream
The worries that you have aren’t as bad as they seem
For once in your life, don’t apologize
For feelings you show are met with no compromise

You fell like a leaf
From a late autumn tree
Floating back and forth
So carelessly
And I am the ground
Waiting for gravity
To pull you to me but you fall with no urgency

Open the window, to let in the rain
With every heartache there’s always something to gain
Let love teach a lesson you shudder to learn
Can’t start a fire with nothing to burn

You fell like a leaf
From a late autumn tree
Floating back and forth

So carelessly
And I am the ground
Waiting for gravity
To pull you to me but you fall with no urgency

Step into the spotlight, no matter how bright the ray
Without taking chances, you won’t find the love you crave
Don’t let love get you down, tomorrow is a new day
And for what it is worth, know your worth more than words can say

You fell like a leaf
From a late autumn tree
Floating back and forth
So carelessly
And I am the ground
Waiting for gravity
To pull you to me but you fall with no urgency

“Cold”

Look at the crowd
It looks like one color
Like everyone here
Is no different
From one another

And there you go telling the same story
Everyday until it bleeds
Telling me that the story tells me how the story bleeds with me

You’re lying through your teeth
When you say that you have to leave
I know that this is over
Self-consciousness kicks in at the slam of the door

And you leave me cold
Yes you, leave me cold
Yes you do, yes you do

I painted a portrait
To cover up all the mistakes
Blending everything
And spreading it over with all the paint

And why don’t I hold my breath
And wait for this to end
Knowing I will survive is
Just something that I can’t pretend, I cant pretend

And you leave me cold
Yes you, leave me cold
Yes you do, yes you do

I can’t even speak
All choked up and waiting impatiently
Maybe I’ll just keep on walking on
And pray that someday we’ll meet
Someday we’ll meet and you won’t be so

Cold
Yes you leave me cold
You leave me cold
Yes you do, yes you do

You leave me cold, you leave me cold
You leave me cold, broken, broken and cold

“I Will Wait”

As simple as I can say it
There’s no turning back
And I will clutch these reins with all my force
While my heart is still intact

Cause I know that you need time
To grieve for what you just lost
And I am busy formulating lines
That you are not ready to cross
That you are not ready to cross

So I will wait…for…you

As we walk through these white walls
That you have painted grey
Even when I beg for your attention
You are looking the other way
Is there something you want to say?????

So I will wait for you
As much as this patience restrains
I will wait for you
And I hope that you would do the same

Listen to me for a minute
Cause this is getting boring
I am trying to shy from all your lies
And ever bit of my longing

Cause this is how I think
And this is

“Wish”

The tip of my tongue is where the words I long to say sit
I’m re-clinging to the past cause I have more information in my grip
I might have made a mistake in being hasty at the start
Maybe it was never you who changed it was me and my demanding heart

I wish I knew you then, I wish I knew you then… like I do now
I wish I knew you then, I wish I knew you then… when I had my doubts
I wish I knew you then, so I could retie the rope I left… frayed on the ground
I wish I knew you then, like I know you now

The sidelines of your life is where my inquisitive self stands
Its been a long time since we talked you’ve met yourself a bright new man(bright new man)
You’ve made it far beyond the breaking point with him and his ways
Your happiness once made me bitter now I regret all the judgment I made

I see you’ve come… come to your senses, saw me for me…
You’ve got no defenses… heard my music in your dreams…
You’ve got no defenses… smelled my fear before the taste took you there…
You’ve come to your senses… felt your way home…

All for Show (2003)

“One Night Stands”

Well, I’ve never given one night stands a good start,
I don’t go nowhere I can’t take my heart,
and I know that makes me some kind of prude,
but I don’t start things I can’t see my way through;

The lonely nights rip me apart,
so don’t go nowhere you can’t take your heart,
cause those nights will pass and the day will break;
I’d hate to see you ruin your life over one mistake.

Cause I can’t do that, and I know you can’t too.
Spending every night offering more than they offer you.
Cause I can’t do that, and why should you.
I know you better you got better things to do.

You got better things to do than run around with all these fools. Cause in the end, my friend, you’ll find out just what you need to do.
Well, I hope you got what it was you wanted.
The finish line doesn’t seem far from where we started.

I’ve learned to give just as much as I take,
but tell me why should I give you something you’ll just break.
Cause I can’t do that

“All For Show”

Hey, how do you do.
Pulling my world over you.
My life’s full of scars from all your burns.
But I gotta say that this roller coaster of yours gets better everytime it turns.

Why are you telling me what I know I want to hear?
Making the beginning better, the ending unclear.
Should I be grateful? Should I be kind?
Hey what do you know? There’s a million lined up all for show.

I’m telling myself that everything will be fine.
I’m losing more of myself in everything all of the time.
Why would you tell me what I know I want to hear?
Making the beginning better than the ending clear.

I smile, but its all for show. All for show.

“My Decision”

He comes out every year, to put his hand on me.
I’m forced to celebrate a rape like an anniversary.
Yes, it was his house, Yes, it was his bed.
Would I have deserved it, if I ended dead?

I didn’t say no, but I didn’t say yes.
Wasn’t for you to judge, wasn’t for you to guess.
If there’s something you want, just ask my permission.
Not for you to judge, that’s my decision.

I asked him to move off. In fact, I said please.
Didn’t like my politeness, cause he wouldn’t let me leave.
So, I waited it out, like I woulda DMV line.
The only difference is the DMV doesn’t hold you down at the time.

I didn’t say no, but I didn’t say yes.
Wasn’t for you to judge, wasn’t for you to guess.
If there’s something you want, just ask my permission.
Not for you to judge, that’s my decision.

I’ve got nothing to prove I’ve been wronged.
No physical scars to prove I’ve been harmed.
I need some time, hell, I need some time to think.
Afterwards, can you believe what he said that should teach you to drink.

I didn’t say no..

“Luxury’s Definition”

Tell me luxury’s definition,
must be to whisper and have everyone listen.
I’ve been told that money rules the world,
but with no purpose, money has no worth.

It’s hard to cheat an honest man,
he gives you nothing to take but his hand.
You can treat me like a woman,
treat me like a man, there’s no difference.

I’m not some girl’s sidekick fag,
I just like a good man, is that so bad?
Tell me luxury’s definition,
to tell the truth, never have to be forgiven.

“The Outskirts of You”

Seems your world has only room for one.
I guess the race is over before it has begun.
And its your mind that tells your heart no.
Pulling it underneath its undertow.
Pushing me further to the outskirts of you.

I call your love an artifact.
Cause I’ve been looking for days, using your words as a map.
And it was lost as fast as it was found.
Was it ever here cause its not here now.
I hope to find it soon as I search the outskirts of you.

This can all be fixed with a lie.
Molding and twisting at the fingers of your mind.
If no one knows, can it be proven true?
Is that why I’ve been banished to, the outskirts of you?

Seems your heart has only room for one.
A fortress built high enough for your heart to run.
And…you had your life perfectly aligned.
I know I’m something you never, ever thought you’d find.
But now as you share my view, can you see the outskirts of you?

But now as you share my view, can you see what I see?
Can you see what I see?
Can u see what I see from the outskirts of you?

“Kinda Hard”

Don’t gotta lotta money.
Don’t gotta lotta time to waste, waste, waste.
In returning home I realize I’ve outgrown every hiding space, space, space.
Kinda hard to grip with nothing to hold onto.
Kinda hard to follow dreams when they won’t follow you.

Might mean nothing to you, but its everything to me.
Might be hard for you but its all I can see.

Momma can you hear me?
Cheryl can you hear me too, too, too?
Ever since you left me I can’t help but think of you.
Kinda hard to know yourself when everyone has something to say.
Kinda hard to find a place to stand when you can never stay.

Might mean nothing to you…

Kinda hard to be yourself in this mess
cause everytime I turn to my heart, its just distress.

Don’t gotta lotta money.
Don’t gotta lotta time to waste, waste, waste.
In returning home I realize I’m the only one in this place.

Might mean nothing to you…

Kinda hard to know yourself when your alone.
Kinda bit scary, to be on your own

“Everytime”

She tells you its been raining on her for days and it won’t stop.
She don’t think you hear her, but I know you feel every drop.
I think she likes to start fires, just to watch the flames rise in your eyes.
And I think she endangers herself to see if you’ll rescue her…Everytime, oh everytime.
Everytime you land on your feet… Everytime. Oh everytime.
She turns your victory into defeat.

I remember when we went to the carnival.
All the rides set up with all the lights.
She begged you to ride the carousel spinning faster than she’s spun your life.
I watched from the sidelines, watching you, watching her, watching me.
I know its all you can do. Just to hold yourself back while she’s riding free.
Everytime, oh everytime. Everytime you land on your feet… Everytime. Oh everytime.

I love how you stood there to tell me.
That she means the world to you. And I know inside how you really feel.
Cause I’m watching her make you a fool.
Yeah, I’m watching her make you a fool. Everytime, oh everytime…

“A Good, Good Cry”

come rest your head on my shoulder.
Have yourself a good, good cry.
And don’t worry about what I might think,
I’m not gonna even ask you why.

Cause we all know what its like.
To feel so powerless.
And although we try to smile,
we get caught once in a while in the overwhelming nets of stress.

Well, I trusted some of the wrong people.
Said more than I should.
There are some mistakes I just can’t break.
I’ve only known to do the best I could.

No excuses allowed, no smothering, stop covering all your suffering.
Cause one day you will find that your eyes are no match for what your heart refuses to hold back…

Come rest your head on my shoulder.
Have yourself a good, good cry.
And don’t worry about what I might think,
I have no reason to ask you why.

Have yourself a good, good cry.

“On the Drive”

I won’t let your water rust my chains.
I won’t let this hunger cause me pain.
I will hold me tight when I need to be held.
Tell me what use are you, when I can do it myself.

If I choose to leave here, I’ll take a taxi car,
I’ll leave the motor running case you want to take part.
But I’m smarter now, so don’t be surprised.
By the time you’ve tied your shoelaces,
I’m already on the drive, I’m already on the drive. I’m already on the drive.

The wind in my hair. My eyes on the road.
For every little white line I count, I picture my new home.
Cause I can’t go back. Cause its too soon.
If I ever look back here. I’ll think of you.

When I go, you’ll bet I take my car.
I’ll leave the motor running in case you can’t stand to be apart.
But I told you I’m smarter now, so don’t look surprised.
By the time you miss me, I’m already on the drive.

The wind in my…

And I will call you up. When I reach my journey’s end.
In case your new lover answers, I’ll say I’m just an old friend.
But if I get the message, I’ll stumble through each word.
But I know you’ll recognize my voice and remember me once I’m heard.

Chorus.

“So…”

Did you mean what you said when you told me no one made you feel like I did?
I chose not to notice. I chose not to see that you had different plans for you than you did for me.

So you want to forget, you want to be free.
Why did you lie to me just to leave? I try to fathom.
I try to understand what would make a soldier abandon his stand?
Listen to the sound of your shoes walking away.
That is what I hear every minute, every hour, and every day.
So you want to forget, you want to be free.
Why did you lie to me just to leave?

oh yeah, lumberjack, you gonna cut me down to my knees.
Swinging that ax around whichever way you please.
How can you be so sure, cause you think your pretty clever that when your up in the trees its not me screaming…timber.
So you want to forget, you want to be free.
Why did you lie to me just to leave?

“It’s Only Fair”

You think that when you got up and walked out, you left me.
Little did you know you spent all night locked in my memory.
No matter how hard I try you keep inventing new ways to break inside my mind
and its only fair, you keep me trapped with you, everywhere.

Moments when I’m unsecured riding with my hands in the air.
I want to be carefree live effortlessly with you in your stare.
Getting closer to the end of the day and I still have the night to bear.
My emotional cruise stops at you. Could you meet me when I arrive there?
No matter what stunt they try, I’ll navigate this plane to land safely by your side
and it’s only right that when I ask you to join me, you take flight.

Here you are in my view and I have submerged myself in your eyes.
I’m at a loss for words, every night I toss and turn.
The words are hard to find. Said the words are hard to find. No matter if your completely unaware.
I’ll tell you what I want to hear although I’m scared
and it’s only fair that when I ask you, you tell me you are there.

Chorus
Said the words are hard to find.
You think that when you got up and walked out, you left me.
Little did you know you spent all night locked in my memory.
No matter how hard I try you keep inventing new ways
to break inside my mind and its only fair, you meet me halfway there

Dark Horse (2005)

“Habit/Curse”

When you ran out of things to do, I finally heard from you, Your voice as clear as yesterday, Last time your voice lacked hope, So I filled it with my own, Now my debt is begging to be paid, And I am flattered, by your choice, But I hear the waiver, In your voice, And I’m not one to expect the worst, But if I’m your habit, you’re my curse, Cause you want what you can have, And I don’t want to feel this bad, So just give me something give me a chance.. Cause you push your dreams on me, And when I reach out invitingly You go to slap away my hand….What is it you say when you talk, Cause I feel it every time I walk, And I’m losing more and more to stand on, And I’d rather my strength be saved, Then give up and you walk away, And it just be me waiting in Vain…..It’s too easy to remember how I felt, Though I hid it underneath myself

Chorus
When you ran out of things to do, I finally heard from you, Your voice as sweet as yesterday.

“Have Me”

I can be sweet, Put my arm around you, Wouldn’t that be neat, Wouldn’t that be neat, I’ll take you to dinner, Wherever you want to dine, We could be serene, I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine, You can have me if you want me, You can have me if you please, You can have me if you want me, You can have me don’t you tease, Nobody wants to be lonely, Everybody wants to belong Even the bitterest of hearts, Has a favorite song (and it goes like this….) chorus I don’t want to be pushy, I just want you entirely, When you say, “No I Can’t DO this!”, I’ll say… ” I INSIST!” chorus

“Clyde”

I have been waiting here, For you to fetch the getaway car, You took the money and the jewels, I’m thinking I’m no prize at all, Cause I’ve been replaced, We planned this months long ago, You told me of the places we would go, I’d wear the jewels and your pockets full of cash cash cash cash, Cause I’ve been replaced, Something tells me they’ll put me away, Behind the bars this day will replay, And replay in my head, my own TV, You are the show and you are free! Cause I’ve been replaced.

“White Horse”

Bobby was taught long ago, to be the one who comes to a rescue, life didn’t turn out the way his folks planned, he’s waiting to be rescued, And it’s off to the races, what will it be, for his love life to run his course? where fairy tales end and happy endings begin, He says, “I’m waiting for my man on white horse.”, Gina’s a pretty smart girl, hailing from the beaches of Destin, She works as hard as her man in Navarre, just to get ignored by him, And it’s off to the races, what will it be, when she realizes that she is worth more? where fairy tales end and happy endings begin, she says, “I’m waiting for my man on white horse.”, Kiley’s a good friend of mine, we go out to the bars in PA, when she’s had too much to drive, our friend Mark gives her a ride, and wave from the cha cha’s window, And their off to her place, what will it be, when he hits on her on her front porch? She says, “Your a nice guy but my girlfriend is inside, Don’t think, I’m waiting for my man on white horse.” And it’s off to the races, what will it be for love to run to its source? where fairy tales end and happy endings begin,, he says, “I’m waiting for my man on white horse.” She says, “I’m waiting for my man on white horse.” Don’t think, “I’m waiting for my man on white horse.”

“Holding Back the Years”

Holding back the years Thinking of the fear I’ve had so long When somebody hears Listen to the fear that’s gone Strangled by the wishes of pater Hoping for the arms of mater Get to me the sooner or later Holding back the years Chance for me to escape from all I’ve known Holding back the tears Cause nothing here has grown I’ve wasted all my tears Wasted all those years And nothing had the chance to be good Nothing ever could yeah I’ll keep holding on So tight I’ve wasted all my tears Wasted all of those years And nothing had the chance to be good Cause nothing ever could oh yeah I’ll keep holding on

“Aimlessness”

If you don’t know what your looking for, How you ever gonna find it? I guess that you could try every door, Without the key, you might as well quit, Aimlessness…The streets are no place for anyone, I don’t care how bad your life was, You’ve got the here and now to do what you know, not what everybody else does. You say. “I’m tired, I don’t feel like it, Well honey I don’t feel like it too. But the choices you refuse to made, will be made for you (Talkin’ ’bout) Aim less ness X3, What you gonna do when nobody else does it for you.

“Stranded”

Little boy, you’ll find your way home, Because home is a place you make your own, And though you’ve lived here most of your life. Everything’s wrong, nothing feels right, nothing feels right….There you were stranded, where no one would ever look Your knee-deep in trouble tonight, Praying for a change, cause today’s loss is tomorrows gain, You know it won’t always be this way…..Your world comes in through technology and magazines, The glamorous friends so far out of reach, And you’d jump in entirely if you knew where it was to dive down deep, Pounding the ice with your feet, with your feet…..Chorus, To the corners of the country From the heart of Kentucky , The city is calling your name! There I was stranded, where no one would ever look I’m knee deep in trouble tonight, I’m praying for a change, Today’s loss will be tomorrow’s gain, I know it won’t always be this way

“Throw Away the Past”

Every time I come here, its always the same, My life in this house is one big misunderstanding, Who am I to you? I’m feeling lost, Never getting any closer, I have no luck, Let’s throw away the past, I no longer want to revisit that, Lets throw away the past, It’s not helping either of us, Focus on what is and not what was, I have learned to disappear when conversations end, Never doing anymore than answering, And I want to know why? Why?, We’ve got nothing left to say , For once I want to talk about tomorrow, Not yesterday….Chorus, It’s not easy I don’t know why I thought it would be, Why I thought it would be……Chorus

“Listen”

Should’ve heard my voice say “HEY!, It’s time to leave”, But I watched them tear down the show……It’s just me in this empty auditorium and the silence is ushering me to leave….If this is all I am given, Then I will stay till the job is finished, And there will be no tears, when its clear to say the end, Until the music stops I will listen, Until the music stops I will listen, And this morning I will brace myself for what is coming my way, And I know the pain will be more than I can estimate, I’ll tell myself I took a wrong turn on the right day, It’s ok….if you can’t stay Chorus

Everywhere All at Once (2006)

“The Difference”

There’s something going on here
Nothing like I’ve ever felt before
A taste I find suspicious
I tend to stick to what I already know

The daydreams entertained me
Til I felt that they were good enough
Then one by one they left me
How quickly work fills all your time up

Cause your different
And you treat me differently
Than all the ones that made it harder on me
When the world seemed to say
They was no one
You changed me, you erased, the life I had begun

I hear it in my voice
The calmness heard when I start to speak
The words I’ve never spoken
Even my lips feel the relief

Cause your different
And you treat me differently
Than all the ones that made it harder on me
When the world seemed to say
They was no one
You changed me, you erased, the life I had begun

When noone even cared
When none of my feelings were ever spared
When everyone said no, you said..

There’s something going on here
Nothing like I’ve ever felt before
A taste I found suspicious
Close all the windows open up the doors

Chorus.

“Thanks”

Thanks for clearing things up
You’ve done the job for me
I was riding the fence on where we stand
And now I see

I started this whole thing with stars in my eyes
Now everything…

They say I’ll drown in obscurity
They forget themselves, but they’ll never forget me..

Ani taught me a new way
Takes a little more time
That the slow and steady is greater than
Any promise from the other side

They say..

In yourself you must believe
In your heart you know what’s right
And if you ever forget let me remind you
It only takes a one smile to make a day bright
It only one throw to roll the dice
It only takes one sun to make the world shine

They said I’d drown in obscurity
They forgot themselves
They will never forget me

“Some getting used to”

Last night I stared at the sky
The stars were no where to be seen
But the hope of tomorrow night
Gave me the power to dream

But its taking some getting used to
Some getting used to
It’s been too long since I’ve seen you
I’ve been doing what I gotta do

Everyday I tell my heart
Someone is coming for you
And I hope to god, that my words tell my heart it’s true
But its taking some getting used to
Some getting used to
Its been too long since I’ve seen you
I’ve been doing what I gotta do

I wanna know the further I go, they is some thing out there for me
I will find my place to show me who I’m made to be
Who I’m made to be

Its taking some getting used to
Some getting used to
Its been too long since I’ve seen you
I’ve been doing what I gotta do

“Worry About Nothing”

I find the worst in you
Because I’m scared
That since I’ve seen the best of you
I’d better be prepared

I’ve got one foot on the step
I’ve got one hand on the rail
I’ve got an anchor around my mind
And my heart wants to set sail

I know we’re doing fine
I do this all the time, I tend to…

Worry about nothing
Worry about nothing
Worry about nothing
Because of you

You’re not looking around every corner
You’re not waiting for a chance to flee
And I’ve waited my whole life to find
Someone who wants me unconditionally

I know we’re doing fine
I do this all the time, I tend to…Chorus)
I know we’re doing fine

“Bartender”

Must be the tight clothes or the lack thereof
Must be the way they spin a bottle of vodka
Must be the lights dark and dim
Must be the way they lean on in…

Tell me why do I always fall in love with the bartender
Some kind of charm coming from behind the bar is that the bartender

Must be the small talk I come back for
Must be the comfort that comes with every pour
Must be the way I feel when called upon
A crowd of drinkers vying for their attention..

Am I a sucker for a pretty face?
That gets prettier and prettier with every taste
Why do I feel you know me so well?
At 2 am, I guess time will tell

Why do I always fall in love with the bartender
Some kind of charm coming from behind the bar is that the bartender

Add liquor to the mixture I am under your spell
Last call for alcohol did you hear the bell?
Our rendezvous is through you hand me my tab
I asked you call me and you called me a cab!

Why do I always
Why do I always
Oh why do I always
Why do I always fall in love with the bartender?
Some kind of charm coming from behind the bar is that the bartender
With every sip, the bigger gets the tip, bartender
Must be the charm
Must be the charm
Coming from my bartender

“Where I’m going”

Sit down on my leg
Let me tell you little story about where I’ve been
Through bridges and tracks
In and out of towns
You wanna know some more?
You better sit down

Grew up traveling state to state
Grew up on many of an air force base
Drive on in, drive on out,
Enough time to feed my soul
Enough time to feed my mouth
Chorus:
Home aint where I was born
Left Charleston at two years old
Nothing left there to call home
I’m in Long Beach tonight
I just stopped in
So don’t ask me where I’m from
Ask me… where I’m going (x 4)

Daddy raised me grandpa grandma too
Three generations underneath one roof
Sister and I lived on the fly, daddy got his orders
Time to say goodbye
You keep in touch with those who are worth your time

Home aint where I was born
Left Charleston at two years old
Nothing left there to call home
I’m in Long Beach tonight
I just stopped in
So don’t ask me where I’m from
Ask me… where I’m going (x 4)

Opportunity may knock on my door
well, your damn sure my ship ain’t sitting by the shore
there’s a big bright world out there for me
to not turn my eyes to the see
wherever I am that’s where I’ll be…..from.

“Acquired Taste”

It’s twelve AM, I’m vandalizing your mind with my poetry
I climbed in your window, up two floors just to yank out the wiring,
Walk out your front door

Cause I am the villain
The antagonist
When you give me innocence I clench my fists
And scream what must I do to get into your face
Ya see, I’m not loved by everyone
I’m an acquired taste

I hide in the shadows, I pull up the floors
You never know where I’ll be better lock your doors
Everyone has a fear, different from the rest
Be careful who you trust, they can hurt you the best

Cause I am the villain
The antagonist
When you give me innocence I clench my fists
And scream what must I do to get into your face
Ya see, I’m not loved by everyone
I’m an acquired taste
X2

“Love shouldn’t have to hide”

I will hold your hand unabashedly
Down these conservative small town streets
Let their eyes criticize us
Guess they never learned how to recognize love

I will kiss you in a busy city
makin time to show our love for all to see
If they attempt to lessen strength of the truest form of showing trust
I’ll say they never learned the art of recognizing love

Love shouldn’t have to hide
Love should make you wanna tell everybody
Love shouldn’t have to hide
Love should make you wanna tell everybody
Love.

A double standard, traditional
The world can change, it has before
If sex is all they see when they picture the two of us
Then I hope they take the time to understand what they call
What they call, what they call
love.

One day we’ll see ourselves on screen in each other’s eyes
So high to see two in love materialize
All bars no orientation, the streets won’t as well
Love has a track record of overcoming and love always will.

Love shouldn’t have to hide
Love should make you wanna tell everybody
Love shouldn’t have to hide
Love should make you wanna tell everybody (x 2)
Love shouldn’t have to hide

“I Don’t Wait Well”

Ever since I was five years old
Time was something unto which
I could not hold
I would stare at the clock to see when
It would wave goodbye with boths its hands
It took every part of me to stay seated.

I don’t wait well, I don’t wait well
…

Resonate (2008)

“Wish You Would”

A song about looking back on someone you lost in love or in life……

I don’t have to be alone tonight
I should be dancing underneath the lights
But instead, I’m thinking of you
You appear at the oddest times
Just when I’m convinced that I’m doing fine
Do you know what you do?

The old letters I find send me on rewind
To the days I’d rather not hit play
But once I’m on that road, there’s nowhere to go
But the one headed back your way

I’m not naïve I know where this can lead
Nowhere safe and nowhere good
I can’t keep away you enter every day..but

Sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would

The spare change in the car ashtray
Is begging to be used for a call your way
But I hesitate
Is my voice ever heard when I’m not near?
Would you listen close or try not to hear?
If I offer all I am, would you take?

The old letters I find send me on rewind
To the days I’d rather not hit play
But once I’m on that road, there’s nowhere to go
But the one headed back your way

I’m not naïve I know where this can lead
Nowhere safe and nowhere good
I can’t keep away you enter every day..but

Sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would

The old letters I find send me on rewind
To the days I’d rather not hit play
But once I’m on that road, there’s nowhere to go
But the one headed back your way

I’m not naïve I know where this can lead
Nowhere safe and nowhere good
I can’t keep away you enter every day..but

Sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would
But sometimes I just wish you would
But sometimes, I just wish you would

“Open The Door”

A song for my sister, Janet, who needed her big brother to stand up for her…

What are you doing?
I’ve been calling you for days
The phone keeps ringing
I know your there
Are you scared
You have nothing to say?

She’s living underground
You always said that you would help
But when the storm rolls in
Your putting up shutters
To save yourself

I can say that you changed
But you could have always been this way
Just the same….

You better get right here, right now
You cannot scold her, if you never taught her how
This is your final shot, show her you are not,
Who you have been before
She is crying and trying to love you now
Open the door

I’m looking through the winter window
Your new family surrounding you
And I remember how we once were
And I wonder if you remember that too?

I’ve learned to get by
Just like all birds learn to do
But that nest you left a mess
Still has one of your young
Struggling to fly through
To find you
You better get right here, right now
You cannot scold her, if you never taught her how
This is your final shot, show her you are not,
Who you have been before
Gave up at the first sign of war
What are you waiting for?
She is crying and trying to love you now
Open the door

“Little Boy Blue”

Written about a transgendered boy I met years ago who taught me how to be myself without apologies…

Someone must have pushed you down
So hard that you couldn’t move and when I
Reached out my stranger’s hand
You refused

In your world, I was lost in time
My roles uniformed, your body and mind
Were living separate lives in separate towns
On opposite sides

Little boy blue
Greener pastures surround you
A yellow sun and white clouds too
They don’t understand you, but you do

They found you a new home
To house you till you were full grown
But when your old enough to know
Where will you go (x5)

Little boy blue
Greener pastures surround you
A yellow sun and white clouds too
They don’t understand you, but you do
Little boy blue
Greener pastures surround you
A yellow sun and white clouds too
They don’t understand you, but I do

No one gave a damn and you were left alone
No one kept you out from where you found your home

Little boy blue
Greener pastures surround you
A yellow sun and white clouds too
They don’t understand you, they try to command you

Little boy blue
Searching this brown earth for your truth
Over gray mountains down and through
They don’t understand you,
But I do (x4)

“Until The Road Unwinds”

A song I wrote for a movie that it didn’t end up in. However, it is a great song about the importance of family, not necessarily biological, but the ones you call family.

Do you remember when I was 5?
Waking you up in the middle of the night
I knew the safest place to run was right by your side

Now I am grown, I still get scared
I might have to drive all night to get there
To be back right there by your side

I still need you like I did in the past
A love like ours may be tried but it will always last…

Cause when it comes down to it
No matter how far I get
Our bond is true
If all the world turns on us
I know we still have love to get us through
Even when the rains begun
Darkest of days have come
Answers are hard to find
Let faith grab a hold
Until the road unwinds

Every family has secrets inside
The things that make them unique they try to hide
For fear what others may see or decide
If only we show what others expect
We lose who we are, our strengths we forget
Its time to listen to each other instead of the rest
I still need you like I did in the past
A love like ours may be tried but it will always last…

There is nothing here to repair
The little boy you love is still here
I still need you like I did, in the past
A love like ours may be tried but it will always last

“For Me”

Our culture is so obsessed with celebrities and their private lives more now than ever. After awhile you get caught up hearing about their lives even when you’re not actively seeking it Then there are millions of reality shows made to make new celebrities. This world is a scary place; someone seeking stardom is eliminated from a reality show every hour.

There seems to be a lot of celebrities
Checking into to rehab
Maybe I should do the same, take some blame
For all the problems I’ve not dealt with in my past

There might be a bug in my system
Soon to make my hard drive crash
There may not even be a problem
A well intentioned hypochondriac

I walk the street outside my home
Clear my head when I’m alone
I let too many people affect me,
I let them control me, I let them own me, I let them….

Walk for me, talk for me, think for me, drink for me
Pay for me, stay for me, late for me, wait for me
Try for me, cry for me, lie for me, get high for me
Pay for me, pay for me, love for me, hate for me

There been times that I’ve seen crimes, been a witness
I watched a father beat his child in my presence
Out of fear I just kept on with my business
Give him the power… the power to commit,
The child less reason to resist

I walk the street outside my home
Clear my head when I’m alone
I let too many people affect me,
I let them control me, I let them own me, I let them….

I keep playing but it ain’t my game
Only got myself to blame
Keep playing but it ain’t my game
Only got myself to blame

There seems to be a lot of celebrities
Checking into to rehab
Maybe I should do the same, take some blame
For all the problems I’ve not dealt with in my past(x3)

I let them….
Walk for me, talk for me, think for me, drink for me
Pay for me, stay for me, late for me, wait for me
Try for me, cry for me, die for me, get high for me
Pay for me, pay for me, love for me, hate for me

“Protestor’s Song”

After all the Pride events I have done with protestors attending with hate, I decided to own my feelings instead of trying to suppress them about the issues that surround the LGBT community in relation to family values, the military, and that word that is often thrown at us: hell.

They’ve come to tell me
That hell is at my door
How nice of them to warn me
A whole lifetime before

I’ve got the rest of my life
Till judgement day is due
Oops look at the time,
I bet you got better things to do

I was not raised the way you were and yes I’m glad
I was born this way, get outta my face, deal with it like I have

I am not a soldier, I am just an average man
Living out my life the best way that I can
I’m not reporting for duty, I’m not recruiting myself
To join armed forces that don’t want me, unless they need my help

General, I’m quite capable, my strength is my proof
Are you afraid I’d try to sleep with every soldier in my troop?
Are you afraid I’d be the hero that you were searching for
And you’d have to thank my faggot ass for winning you, your fucking war

I was not raised the way you were and yes I’m glad
I was born this way, get outta my face, deal with it like I have

They say family values
Are under attack
And I agree every time I see a gay kid
Kicked out on his back

How can parents be so cruel
Throw you out with no remorse
If that was me, I’d turn around and say….

I was not raised the way you were and yes I’m glad
I was born this way, sorry, I’m gay, deal with it like I have

“In Demand”

This song is about money, of course, and how it takes money to make money. It also takes believing in yourself to make others believe in you too.

Whoever said the best things in life were free
Must have had an easy ride or some tricks up their sleeve
It takes quite a lot of change to keep this train on track
Cause everyday they raise the prices but they never put them back

I need some dollars
I got money on my mind
Doesn’t make me greedy
Cause I want to pay my bills on time

I don’t run cause I’m scared, I run cause I’m free
When life gives me lemons, I squeeze

I was once in supply but now I’m in demand!
I once called everyone in town and nobody gave a damn
Now when I roll up on the street, they want to shake my hand
I was once in supply but now I’m in demand

I once had money, I was wealthy in a sense
I’ve been so broke my bank account only showed 10 cents
Either way, the electric company shows me no love
Cause when the bill is late, they threaten to pull the plug

I need some dollars
I got money on my mind
Doesn’t make me greedy
Cause I want to pay my bills on time

I don’t run cause I’m scared, I run cause I’m free
When life gives me lemons, I squeeze

“Only”

I finally wrote my first upbeat happy love song…it’s taken a while.

I swim everyday towards you
Murky waters don’t scare me
Shivering, love warms me through
Land can’t keep me out of your sea

Do you believe?
I want what I see
This place was made for you and me…

Only(x2)

New York City’s days away
I can hear every sound
Its like we’re standing at the top of the empire state
Hold me close, my darling, don’t look down

Do you believe?
I want what I see
This place was made for you and me…

Only(x4)

I’ve got my flashlight in hand
Like a forest in the night time, unchartered land
These three words that can’t help but fall from my mouth
This heart of mine has only, has only one way out

Do you believe?
I want what I see
This place was made for you and me…

Only(x8)

“He’s Using You”

Wrote this as I was listening to an acquaintance talk about money over love. I started to feel bad for anyone who truly falls in love with someone who is only after material things. This is my “Christina” for Patty Griffin fans.

He’s using you
He’s biding his time till he finds someone new
He’ll take until you notice it, then kiss you hard to win you back
He’s using you

He’s whispering
What you want to hear and you can’t stop listening
The same string he has you on, will pull you anywhere he’s gone
He’s using you

Is it the thrill, he likes?
Temporarily excites
You better bundle up, getting cold outside
He’s playing you like some lottery
Maybe he’ll stay, and maybe he’ll leave

He’s using you
His touch might be fun, but what are you gonna do?
When the fever starts to drop a bit,
And his shoulder gets to cold to lay your head on it,
What are you gonna do?

Is it the thrill, he likes?
Temporarily excites
You better bundle up, getting cold outside
You say you know how to treat your guy,
But what if he ain’t treating you right?

He’s using you
Your laughing at his bad boy ways, so why are you crying too?
You say you want some clarity, if you had some then you would see
The one for you, is me.

“We Are The Same”

This was a piece of a song that I had written awhile back and decided it just needed to be a short, sweet song about treating others as you wish to be treated. First somewhat spiritual song I’ve written.

I don’t know why
Some birds don’t fly
I guess they all have their ways
I know the lord makes no mistakes

I don’t know why
Some people try
To throw stones in others’ homes
To teach them right from wrong

But what if you knew me, personally,
If I struck a chord?
What if you saw me, vivid and clearly,
Could I be ignored?
If we could talk and we both could listen
Understand how we are different…
Then maybe we could see….
That we are the same

I don’t know why
Fear swells inside
When we are faced with difference
This world is too small to be scared of it

“There’s Gotta Be Something”

A song I released as a solo acoustic song that accompanied my first music video. Decided to spice it up a bit with the band and make it new again.

I didn’t see the bomb, I just felt the aftermath
Now you look at me, a stranger in your path
I didn’t catch the cause, all I got was the effect,
Before I knew what hit me, it had left.

There’s gotta be something,…there’s gotta be something
There’s gotta be something, your not telling me.
There’s gotta be something, there gotta be something
There’s gotta gotta be something, your not telling me

I thought that we were cool, I thought that we were down
Thought you had my back when my back was on the ground
And when the time came, I was up against the wall
Never caught my eye, you just stood to watch me fall

Mirror mirror on my wall, I used to run but now I crawl
Give me my identity, you got something that I need
I’m begging you now to reflect, the best of me I’ve not seen yet…
Mmmmmhmm.

You’ve got something that I need.

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